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Happy New Year's Eve everyone!
today's gonna be a good day!
gonna celebrate the new yr 2004 with a bang at sean's place! red wine anyone?? hee.
oh yea, went for sam fern's house for dinner yesterday! her mom's a great cook btw.. you couldnt get enough of the nasi lemak and devil's curry! -lick lips-
and thanx sam once again for the present! i'm going to be super sparkly from now on! :P

well, i'm stuck at home now, rotting away.. desperately wanting to catch LOTR with no success, cos everyone else seems to have watched it long ago... (while i was enjoying in rome) gee, talk about opportunity cost man. gotta catch School Of Rock as well man! hm, what's in for Scary Movie 3, really?

ok, so i said i'd be uploading rome pics.. but the stupid msn jus hasnt enough space for thee precioussssss pics.. and i've failed to post up the grad night photos.. oh no, i'm such a nut at the com.. maybe i should try yahoo..

oh well, i applied for a job yesterday. (finally) hope they call me asap and employ me! >_< otherwise i'm back to square one.. talking about jobs, i ever wondered about getting one at a club.. it'll be fun! except it means late nights, and parents' disapproval i guess.. haha. they're not that enthu about me clubbing anyway.. and talking about clubbing.. monday night was a rrrreal party! lotsa j1s i suppose, but who cares when there's great music? as usual it's at chinablack.. this time much better than the last.. this is probably one of the last few parties i'm attending.. that is if i get the job.. sob. kinda sad eh? haha. the funniest thing was, i managed to stay awake, cos ltc happened to end that evening at 5plus.. it's a wonder i could climb out of bed and into chiong-ing stuff.. lol.

speaking of ltc, it's been a wonderful experience. no doubt we were sleepy-eyed half the time through the intensive sessions, nevertheless events of the camp were deeply etched into our minds. the sessions we had: history of the church, aims of cyf, planning skills, presentation skills, calling "lester's dad", having our meals together (popiah!), p&w, POW, operations COJO and JOCO (haha), the knock-it-downs.. i'm sure the team has gotten to know each other relatively better, but we still need lotsa work on that.. last but not least, great big thanx to everyone on the team: sean (BOSS), isabelle (though absent but i'm sure she was spiritually with us!), seb, darren, shawn, kel, sam, kirstin, elsa, joachim and ethelbert, and the advisors and leaders: tee, les, cally, colin, g-bear, jon, lai, and uncle david who came to visit us.. thanx for all the guidance, the lessons, advice, and inspiration.. i'm sure the core team 2004 will make it through all of your help!

a personal thought.. stepping up already takes a lot of guts, but loving the members takes even more. it's definitely not easy.. u gotta put in effort to love every single one of them, even if your opinion of any of them could change for the worse throughout the yr, even if you are afraid of the person.. selflessness, that's what it is. would i be able to achieve even a little of that? setting a good example to the members? consistently throughout the yr? i know everything will fall into place as long as i put God first, but we always have worries since we're not perfect. leadership is actually quite stressful when it comes to serving. as it is said, the first will be the last.. just as jesus stooped down to wash his disciples feet, we have to humbly serve our members.. well, in the first place, leadership was never about who did what better and who was always the first.. as long as whatever we do, we do with God in our heart and with love and sincerity.. that's the most important. and another thing is to be true to ourselves. that means a lot as well.. well, that's how i feel at least. since i've not done much reflections before and after ltc, it's about time i did it.. so.. yup.

ok, gotta end off.. lunch is here!

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hey all!!!!!! i'm back from ROME!!!!! no simple words can describe my trip i tell u.. it's great, wonderful, fulfilling, fun, amazing, breath-taking... and these still dont do Rome any justice! lester, sherwin, gilbert, kelvin, josephine and i spent a good one week in rome, and Assisi on the last night... i really dunno what to say! i snapped tons of pictures, and mine wasnt even the most... not pro pics, but i'll try to upload them all the same (dont worry, this time my com is not gonna screw up and kill the pics, and plus g-bear has kindly burnt them into a cd so they're safe!) whee! we visited the main basiilicas such as St Peter's, St Paul's, St John's, etc. the Pantheon, the Vatican Museum, and so on. will name them as i upload the pics k? cos it's getting damn late and i've ltc later in the morn... eeks.

just to let everyone dear know i'm back home safely! the plane trip back home was in fact quite uncomfortable, and the food not as delectable, but nonetheless, it didnt make the trip any less fun! (provided i bought a bottle of duty-free baileys at the airport! :P) btw it was a 9hr ++ flight from rome to bangkok, then another 2hr ++ back to singapore.. phew-whee. i'm glad the flights are over. aww man, i miss Rome... (i've promised myself i'll go back again sometime, probably with family) there's just to much to tell! anyone interested to see the pics asap can come over to my place or something! i did quite a few videos on my cam too :) (should have done more actually)

one more thing. to everyone, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! some people would've gotten the cards late cos i wrote them in rome and i just sent them tonight.. haha. i'm so sorry about that. anyway, christmas somehow felt a little different this yr.. maybe a little quieter?? maybe it was because i was damn jet-lagged that i couldnt sense the christmas spirit? (well, i came back from the airport, unpacked, then met steph in town) ended kinda sleepy-headed.. but managed to pull through midnight mass.. cheers to Christus Laudatur Voce Choir for their well done pageant! except for the batteries that went dead half way through mona's song!! lol. the dancers were great too, though kinda stiff (definitely from the nerves yea) gave out presents after mass.. (did the last min shopping after i came back.. eeps) i'll have to try to do something for everyone next yr man, feel bad about missing out quite a lot of people for the presents.. >_< oh yea, it was sam koh's house this yr again for christmas! it's a cyf tradition for a member to open up his or her house for all the peeps to go and celebrate, eat, etc, and stay over.. if they want to. it was good cos sam's place, which is at Riverwalk apartments, has a open floor area at the 5th storey, where there's a pool, pavilion, bbq area and tennis area! big space for us to wander around.. it was fun, though once again kinda quiet, not too much people.. when i reached there i regretted wearing my thin and sleeveless top.. the wind was so strong! luckily greg lent me his jacket.. and i dozed off while listening to colin's lame jokes 2003.. haha. remind me to tell them next time!

ok, that's about it for christmas night.. gotta catch some sleep now before i oversleep for 6.30am mass later! >_< ciao!

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OH-MY-GAWD.
u can never imagine how it feels like to be in the indoor stadium, sitting in with a million other fans, lights all on, anxiously waiting for THE MAN to appear. and u can never imagine, going for a concert without buying the light sticks?!?! that's what mimi and i did. -_-" we were squirming about in the east wing, middle row at the side, at 8.25pm (concert supposedly starts at 8). Then it came. HE came. the scene was just absolutely spectacular, light sticks (of all sorts: standard ones, starwars light sabre lookalike ones, those with spinning lights... u name it, the fans have it) waving wildly welcoming THE MAN himself: DAVID TAO!!!!!!!!!!!!! his voice was just so lovely, so mesmerising.. rising above the high-pitched screams and the thunderous applause... and he looked soooooooo goooooooood. absolutely stunning. when he appeared, mimi and i went crazy. at that point in time, we badly wanted to join those fans in the front seats. argh. we couldnt reach him unless our arms were 30-50m long.. he rocked the stage man, from his lovely ballads to rock hits.. he did it. (it was a pity he didnt go topless, haha) great band, great music, great voice, great TAO ZHE. even his fans from other parts of the world flocked in to watch him! china, HK, japan, england, australia, malaysia... he even managed to spot one fan who went for every single one of his concert.. that is a true blue david tao fan! -sigh- wish we all had that money to tour with him around the world man.. oh yea, of cos we knew who the guest singers were: TENSION! mimi screamed for Raymond while i screamed for John, haha. felt like i was about 5 years younger. anyway, the way the fans screamed "encore" and stomped the indoor, while chanting "DAVID, DAVID, DAVID, DAVID.." was just too cool for words. of cos he had to turn up again! he sang the last few songs, which kept us up and singing along... phweeeet. we so didnt wanna leave. hence, when the concert ended at about 11pm, we reluctantly left (to catch the last buses obviously :P) about two and a half hours of pure blissssss. how about that man. we were super pathetic though. the perhaps once in a lifetime david tao concert we attended and we DIDNT bring a cam. how could we have forgotten?!?!?!?! wonder if we could contact any david tao fans and ask them for some photos.. haha. that would be superb man. maybe that's a sign for mimi and i to go for his other concerts.. he did say "see you next year!", didnt he? :)

the only sad thing was i killed my throat while screaming for David Tao.. suspected myself to have contracted tonsilitis (is it spelled this way?) since sat night, so my throat hurts like hell now. going to see the doc soon. verrrrry soon. argh. there goes all the fried and spicy food... hope my throat recovers before departure for rome.

which reminds me to countdown: 6 more days to rome!!! whee! gotta go to novena on sat for confession before i leave, since it's a pilgrimage, and it's Advent now. preparation for Christmas! i havent bought any prezzies yet, though the christmas tree is up.. it looks like there's something missing though. -shrug-

oh yea, yesterday was leader's prep meeting as well. it went well, and i've decided to step up. no more indecisiveness and worries. i'm praying for more potential CYF leaders to step up as well. it's true about what the advisors shared yesterday. (hey les, what u said about tee's words stuck to me as well :) ) as long as u love responsibly, u are up to serve. i always have worries about not setting a good example (does that mean clubbing is out? O_o) and not reaching out to members, but since les used to have that problem as well, and if he can overcome it, why cant i yea? -determined- it's a good opportunity to contribute to the church community again.. since i only stepped up for a few months during sec4..

quite nervous for this fri's AGM actually.

ok, gtg for breakfast then to the doc.. tralalala... (euphoria from yesterday's concert still not washed away)

prom's night's over.
and i dunno wad to say about it...
just happy and awkward times. haha. lotsa photo-taking, smiles, food, laughters, weird and quite irritating sound effects, and over-reaction.. hmmm..
wished i had dressed up more actually.. haha. until now i'm stil kinda thinking about that warehouse dress.. hahaha.
damn.
and probably the whole of A51 knows i took photos with him. hahaha. (glares at jason)
well, what's done cannot be undone.
and the clubbing after that made up for some of the discomfort.

SOS..... not a bad place on a weekday? super empty i can say.. it was more of a cj-sa night.. didnt have as many drinks as i had imagined, and danced like nobody's business.. blissss. after a long absence of clubbing, i guess my alcohol tolerance has fallen. but i still love lychee martini though!

we walked all the way to lau pa sat after that, legs aching by then. i ate like nobody's business, and ended up looking 3-4 months pregnant.. argh. food's always a sin. back at the hotel, carmy, zai, eugene, andrea, jason, and i (with hazel in MIA mode, cher sleeping and angie watching) were playing the game similar to that of prom night, except we didnt have peanut butter, soy milk, pineapples, coke, or potato chips.. just a bottle of vodka. haha. i think andrea and jason drank most of it... pwheeet. i didnt wanna drink.. not really me yea? lol. i'm known for relatively high alcohol tolerance actually.'. annie's become a good gurl! hohoho.. not to mention carmy and zai got high after the vodka.. haha. they were giggling like mad...

anyway, we didnt fall asleep till around 7am.. then my hp rang non-stop with the sms ringtone.. hahaha. now u know samsung phones can be damn irritating ;P (out of point but i'm fascinated with the new samsung E700!!!!!)

now, i'm just spending my entire week and the next reading all the library books my hands can get hold of!! jill mansell, jane green, sophie kinsella, olivia goldsmith, bring it on! haha. fiction-deprived for the past year i guess? i'm addicted to the books.. finished 3 out of 4 in just 2 days.. gosh. is there such a thing as craving for books? but fiction of cos..

hm. away from books. countdown: 8 more days to departure for rome! whee! and i just remembered david tao's concert is just tomorrow!! eeeeowwww! geez, i almost forgot about it >_<

oh ya, cant wait to see steph next sun! er although it's the day of departure but i'm only leaving at night. so gonna spend the day with her before i leave! yays! -jumps- ^_^ havent seen her for months... i miss her sooo much...

really, tis the season to be jolly! :P

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oh my gawd. i just wanna thank angie and cher so much!! i love u 2!! and dith!!! i'd love to shower a million kisses on u!! thank you all so much for coming down yesterday night... u've all melted my heart..... :)

btw, i thought yesterday night was great, with the skits and all! didn't had such a great laugh in a while.. though the band was not perfect and all, but i thought we were pretty good! credit goes to the whole band: judette, joachim, jem, sean, g-bear, sebastian and sam! whee! it was quite a pity the crowd wasn't hyped up.. or we could've gone even more wild.. just nerves i guess.. haha. esp that this IS the first time i'm singing in a band.. look forward to more of these!

oh yea, there was just so much fooooood... yummylicious. not to mention that after clearing up, some of us headed down to Lor 5 to finish up some of the leftovers!!!! geez. only after i rubbed my bulging belly did i realise prom night's only 3 days away... DARN. hope i can still fit into the dress >_< well, walked home with jem after that, but it didn't help much at digesting the food.. haha. it was a good half hour walk nonetheless..


um, went for interview today... it's that valuair co.. and they were only looking for FLIGHT ATTENDANTS today. geez. sorry, i fulfil height requirement but not the SIZE requirement.. if i did, i sure would've gone for it! haha. ended up signing a job form at starbucks.. hope they need me there soon! haha. hols without work sure is torturing.. with all the events coming up that sure burns holes in pockets. anyway, went over to jem's place to chill for a while, then they (namely sam, gerald, sebastian and jem of cos) hopped over to my place (fyi jem lives opp my blk).. chips, pepsi twist and bluff. nice combi eh... haha. they left about an hour ago.. well. it's always nice to have some friends over to chill sometime! :)

yays. if i'm not working, heck. shall enjoy myself on tue at sentosa... again. this time with cyf! it's gonna be fun, but not like what jem said: tan from 10 to 11-ish, makan till 4, then start tanning again till 6. cos i said the best time to tan is about 9-10-ish am and 4-6 pm. gee. we'll skip the makan till 4 part yea.. haha. wonder where the vball part fits in.. hmm.. i should just stay in the shade and read some book... absolute blisssssss.

well, just hope i don't get too tan that my mom faints at the sight of me.. haha. she likes me to have a fair complexion, the fairer the better.. weird. i always liked to have a little tan, seems healthier that way.. well, gotta trim off that bulge before tue! arg!

oh no, that means not too much drinks on mon night.. beer belly.. eeeeeee. haha.

wheee... 29th nov... it's DEE day! going down to church for last prep at 4... and i think i'm supposed to go to NTUC to buy the pasta ingredients and stuff. but heck. i need to enjoy my morning! ^_^
was kinda worried when the alarm woke me up cos my throat felt kinda dry. *panic* if i get a sore throat today, i'm soooo gonna DIE. >_<

hmph. remember the job interview? arghhhhh! the guy who told me to turn off yesterday was actually absent. darn. i'm supposed to be pissed off, but what can i do, i'm the interviewee... then my mom made some sickening remarks which were so not encouraging. some parents always have SOME things to say in EVERYTHING. hm. and my mood was half-spoilt THIS MORNING about dad tryin to pull me down for some other job interview. it's not that i don't wanna go today, i'm not free at all! and tomorrow.. if i finish mass at 12.. the interview stops at 4.. and it's a walk-in.. i most probably won't get the chance.. geez. and my mom had to dig out all those "my friend's daughter could find such a good-paying job" kinda shit. oh fuck off. this shit really pisses me off like hell. i'd like to find my job in peace THANKYOU. stop saying that u gave me pocket money for nothing this past 12yrs. it's YOUR responsibility to take care of your children dammit. don't u ever dare push the blame on us. if u want me to contribute to this family, tell me nicely. don't use those sarcastic and condescending-i-gotta-put-u-down remarks. and i'm entitled to use my pocket money in any way i want, u have the authority to restrict the amount but you don't have the authority to restrict what i spend on u $#@%(*&^$#$@!. nothing good happens when i tell my parents something. i regret telling them i was going to look for a job. *curses myself*

see, my day was supposed to start off well, but look at it. just look at it. it's super sad. and that !$#^*$#% can go on about that stupid topic for at least a day, raking up the issue every few minutes. my ears are beginnning to rot from being exposed to those explicit words. now, how am i gonna have a peace of mind tonight?!

just as i thought things were starting to look better, they didn't. this month is really not the month for me. this is getting me pessimistic about the Rome trip. i'm sure some people will somehow spoil the last few days before i go off. shit. i don't wanna continue that thought.

well, enough of complaints. i originally intended for this entry to be a happy one, but bad stuff can never be ignored. i'm wondering when i can go shopping again! really need to buy lotsa stuff before going off.. and i'm still waiting for the assist manager to call me.. things not looking very good now. no job, no money, cant buy stuff. mom sux, cant buy stuff. eventually, cant buy stuff. sorry people, no christmas presents then. haha. i'll work out a way. i'll just go rob a bank or something.. -_-

tis the season to be (not) jolly.. falalalala la la la laaaaaaaaaa....

mmmm... the joy of waking up late and knowing that you don't have school.. haha
here i am, having my brunch while whacking the keyboard...
nice days could go on forever... BUT, i have a job interview afterwards..
it's not that i dread the interview, it's just that i havent had proper sleep for the past few days.
AND i'm genuinely excited about the interview *prays hard* i really hope i'll get the job..

well, besides the job interview, tomorrow's CYF Night!!!! woohoo! we're gonna rock the stage man. luckily with God's help, the band has managed to finish our pract, or rather, scrape through. so far, i've only attended.. 4 practices.. haha. nonetheless it's gonna be great! ^_^

time's passing real fast suddenly, next week's prom night already! gee, so many events, so little money on me.. whoa, i dunno if i can survive this.. plus, i've been persuaded to go for 1st dec's Chinablack.. argh. money no enough man.. then there's David Teo's concert on 7th dec!! it's finally coming.. after that it's beautiful Rome.. ahhhhhhh.....

events-packed 2 weeks.. and after i return from Rome, christmas eve! i wonder if i'll have enough sleep.. haha. there seems to be hardly any time to get presents and cards! oh well, tis the season to be jolly, falalalala la la la la...

oh ya! did i mention! an hons, yans, mimi and i went shopping yesterday.. whee.. i bought my christmas top.. haha. love it to the core. still wondering about the christmasey top though! hmmmm.. to buy or not to buy... that is the question. oh yea, sammy (an's husband!) came afterwards! hahaha.. yans, mimi and i had a super fun time teasing em.. wheeheehee.. couldn't help it la hons, too bad u 2 weren't wearing shirts of the same colour.. or else! it would've been worse. HAHAHAHA. :P

nothing's gonna put me down cos.. tis the season to be jolly, falalalala la la la la...

oh my gawd!!!!! i'm back!!!! actually i did blog at Pacific Coffee on thur but the stupid com cut me off.. darn. but anyway! my com's finally discharged! for those who didn't know, my com CRRRRRRRRASHED. so there. argh. the torture of those few days without it..

ahhh.. finally, the A's are over, shopping season begins! except that i'm broke. haha. spent most of my savings on the rome trip.. so now i'm racking my brains on how to get my christmas stuff before departing for rome..

it's so exciting now that everything good is nearing! ^_^

oh yea, went to SOS on fri. alright man! thoroughly enjoyed myself! cant wait for 8th dec.. Chinablack! whee! one last party before going to rome.. haha. i seem to be mentioning rome everywhere. what can i do? i AM going there!!!!! :P

oops, almost forgot. i gotta go town now! (equals to cant wait to blog again ;) )

argh! i can't resist the temptation to blog! happened to peek at the pc while on the way back to my room.. hiak hiak hiak.. the seat's empty!! haha. the reason being, my dad's taken a whole week off from work(great, just when my exams are packed into this whole week), and my bro's enjoying his school holidays right now.. argh. that equals to both of them taking turns to HOG the com.. -_-

yays, i gotta make my online time worthwhile then! but what else can i talk about besides exams? and mugging? hm, supposed to be biah-ing my econs mcq right now, but heck. oh btw, had a wonderful lunch with dith after math paper2 today! whee.. there was lots of food.. palatable except for the super-crunchy-more-like-rock-hard-rather bread sticks.. and lots of conversation! fyi, we were at pizza hut, enjoying the cheap lunch express set, but not so for the atmosphere.. quiet (empty), hawker-centre-like except for the aircon, and chinese auntie waitress.. GEE. dith and i were like ordering our food in chinese. weird thing to do at a place like pizza hut? that's ok, cos all the talking made up for the lack of ambience.. heh. i haven't had such a long chat with someone for a very long time! thanx dith for the company! *muacks* i'm actually a very chatty person, just that somehow during the transition into jc, i 've quietened a little.. i remember hogging the phone during sec school days.. haha. or maybe it's just dith that makes me feel like talking! :)

btw! did i say i got the lame genes from my parents? just yesterday, my dad was looking for his glasses. he was asking mom, guess what she said?! (there was newsweek lying on the nearby table with mahathir in specs on the cover) "theeere! your glasses are with mahathir!"... *rolls on floor laughing* geez, come to think of it, mahathir's glasses do look like my dad's.. hahaha. so LAME! seriously, there couldn't have been a better answer than that!

hai, 3 days into A's.. 8 more days till it's over! way to go.. but dreading human geog.. eeeee.

ok, back to econs! (and Holland V later! tonight's episode's is a must-watch!)

time for my once-in-a-blue-moon shoutout!!
Happy Belated Halloween everyone! haha.. as if we celebrated it..
hm, i'm wondering why i'm still feeling so energetic.. while most people are blue, and super stressed? *touches own forehead* i think i have a 100degrees fever..

well, i was trying very hard to get some econs into my head yesterday, when i suddenly had this thought of stacking all my notes away and sending them to Antarctica.. or any deserted island in the world.. i dunno why, but i just felt i wasn't a book-ish person at all.. all this while i've been numbed by tons of books, lectures and tutorials.. none of which i'd been interested in. if my parents chucked me at a bakery and made me work there i'd gladly do it! it's really just not me to be buried in books all the time.. yea, true that i managed to survive primary and secondary school, but the purpose was not for myself.. all i wanted was to please my parents.. however, i cantback out now, not when i'm already near the end..

Holy Waterrrrrrr... i need holy water! to calm my nerves! the concealed anxiety i have inside of me which refuses to fade off, which shall choose to erupt on the very day of my exams!!! i suppose this is an after-effect of going to Novena with Jason and Na, especially when my bottle of holy water has been exhausted.. need.. to.. go.. this.. saaaat...

on a happier note! my flights to and from Rome has been confirmed!!! yipeee!!! we'll be leaving s'pore on 14th dec at 8.55pm.. and returning on 24th dec (christmas eve!) morning 11.15am!! whee!! i've never been so excited i tell you.. i think it's prolly enough to offset my anxiety for A's? anyone gonna miss me? haha.. prolly all partying while i'm gone.. gone to see (i hope) THE POPE!! how's that mannnn!!! another good news is, we have to transfer flights at bangkok! wow! know what that means? SHOPPING! haha.. fatal addiction.. *rubs hands* i hope 14th dec comes real soon!

furthermore! i'll be going for David Tao's concert on 7th dec!! that's like double blisssss.... i can imagine myself at the indoor stadium already! aaahhhh! *grabs mimi and screams* we're going! we're really going! ^_^ hm, weird that the ad for his concert only came out recently.. mimi's dad had booked our tix quite long ago, and sad to say, we're quite the slowcoaches.. most of the good seats have been taken already..

i guess i should be rejoicing.. there's just so much to look forward to after the A's! not to mention clubbing as well.. heh. first party of the month shall be on 21st nov at chinablack, proceeds are supposedly going to go to some vietnamese children fund.. my friends suspect it's a scam, but what the heck? i'm there to enjoy myself anyway.. :P

*skipping around the room* i must work.. last week to mug! hm, word of the week? consistency! including fervent prayers! i musnt let my parents down..

i'm so sorry for the error display of photos! but i think i'll only try to put them up after A's.. no time to get them up now.. but yea, like everyone's so excited and looking forward to A's.. including me! ain't we?? so that after A's we can go CLUBBING!!! hahahaha.. :P

clubbing and me... i'm definitely going crazy.. crazy from.. not studying enough.. crazy from.. sleeping too much.. arghhhh. u know what i mean, i know i have to help myself but my limbs and my brain just won't listen to me! *screams at brain, then at limbs* my fingers are only good at typing on my blog, not for grabbing a pen and scribbling pages and pages of essay outlines, data reps, math sums and gp compres.. hmph. useless limbs i say. do your work i say!

away from my useless limbs.. i think my mom's experiencing MENOPAUSE.
i told her that all women will experience menopause at one point in their life and you know what? she screamed at me! atrocious behaviour! i was being nice and all, trying to tell her that menopause does not equal end of the world and that it isn't all that bad, and that one day i'll be experiencing menopause too (not that i don't right now) at some point of my life.. blah the blah the blah.. and she told me to shut up and forbid me to say the word MENOPAUSE. wtf? then i gave up and yelled at her for being childish.. it's no use telling her nicely.. she only listens when i yell.. sucks. therefore, if i cant say it in front of her face, i say it here.. menopause, menopause, menopause, menopause, menopause!!!!! super annoying mom i tell you..

oh, and more annoying stuff. ok, maybe not that annoying, but ya. this is definitely not the first time this is happening to me. i hang out with a friend, gotta face her extreme mood swings and get insulted (because she didn't bother about my feelings). i mean, what's wrong? you gave an unpleasant comment, fine i take it. later on, you start sulking and that makes me wonder if i'm that bad a person to hang out with. you were fine one moment and totally @!$%&^@!# the other.. i really cant keep up with your mood swings. i'm always glad to hang out with you but if you're sick of going out with me just tell me, i'll accept that. don't leave me hanging there wondering if the reason was me or pms please, thankyou very much.

hm that felt better. the blog is always a good place to just bleurgh out all that bad stuff bottled up inside..

btw! i miraculously did a gp compre today! whee! congratulate me cos i'm a frequent gp ponner and i hardly hand in work.. blargh. and i ran today! yipee! along with an hons and jason to labrador park.. jason runs fast man. couldnt possibly have caught up with him at all.. the park was cool and breezy, really good place to jog. the total distance is less than 2.4 but it felt more tiring than on the track.. for me that is.. maybe i'm just used to the Sunday jogs with Shamu :) jogging this sunday with her as usual.. love you lots mu! celebrate our.. almost 18 years of friendship! haha.. well, we were neighbours since we were born, and we've been together since! (not that kind of together la!!) oh.. i just realised we haven't taken any recent photos of 2 of us.. eeks. we should have an ij gathering sometime after A's and take tons of photos!!! and makan!!! haha.. i'm always thinking about food.. hm.. Fish and Co! (i like the service at Novena Square's man) or Swensons! er, just not sakae sushi.. haha.

oh speaking of Fish and Co, i had a family dinner there recently, and i have to admit i'm a suaku cos it was our first time there.. -_- the food was so good! but that's not the point. our food was brought by this indian guy, whose service is good, but we dont know his name. when it came to settling the bill, my dad actually blurted out some tamil name, govindasamy or something!! my god! it was so embarrassing! then he went on rambling all those possible tamil names he could call the guy in order to get his attention. goodness. i wish i could've hidden under the table.. i cant recall the names, but boy, they were hilarious. no offence to our fellow indians, but the thought of my dad calling him all those names only made me wanna roll on the floor.. the joys of eating with my dad.. heh.

ok, it's over 12. Happy Deepavali everyone! especially to all the indian families out there.. hm. public hol is never enjoyable when exams are approaching. darn. oops, my bro's waiting for the com.. gotta gooooooooo....

with pretty cher!


with de.ass... haha


with my eldest daughter! germie so cute!


with jason!


with jervie my grandson!


with mimi!!


mr wee!! my bro says he looks cute.. haha.


we look super enthu dont we? my dearest sharn sharn!


with shell! now where's rrrrrrritchie..haha


with sze wenn! pretty girl man..


whee! with my youngest daughter zai!!


alrite.. my dar with karen! yans this is for u!

my dar!


Our Couple Of The Year


my girlfriend! (also angie's wife..haha)


my wife.. at the door?!


honz and bunz.. heh

ahem.. as much as i dont wanna put this up.. i have to.. just look at the pic with me covered k?


we're the background for THE couple..


er.. we were just bo liao? but i llllllllike itttttt... haha

i gtg for choir.. but the farewell assembly pics will be up soon! :)

haha.. took photos of my bro the night before farewell assembly.. cute yea? he's 15 already..
well.. at the beginning of this year, my relationship with my bro wasnt that good.. we were often squabbling.. but now, i'm glad the 2 of us are on good terms! oh, brotherly and sisterly love is wonderful.. heh.

wheeeeee! i missed blogging so much..
fyi, i'm supposed to be in church for pract now, but i decided i'll skip it and go for mass only.. :P
btw! had a great time with jem and greg yesterday at Sakae sushi (Toa Payoh)!! so stuffed after the buffet.. felt like throwing up all the food but nah.. i'm not bulimic. guess i gotta run like 2.4km x2?! it feels worse than a beer belly.. >_<

to walk off calories, i decided to head down to orchard.. was supposed to buy Jobeth's birthday present anyway (her birthday's tomorrow).. so yup. outcome of the walk: shopped for jobeth's prezzie AND for myself.. haha. it's so me ya! :P bought this pair of really cool and cute shoes which, excuse me, happens to be the last pair. lol. 1. it means it's damn hot-selling so i made the right choice. 2. it means that half the island will be spotted with those shoes and i wouldnt wanna be wearing them on the same day as someone(s) else! darn, but heck. i love it! oh darn again, that means i cant shop anymore on Sunday.. ugh. never mind, i'll just contend with window-shopping!

is it the after-effects of sushi-eating that makes me feel hungry? haii.. i knew it was a mistake to go for the buffet, but shouldnt one indulge once in a little while? i should be glad for my anti-snacks kitchen cupboards shouldnt i?

talking about food, Sharn Sharn is coming to my house next tuesday for lunch!! *super excited* the menu is already out, but i'm not telling, cos my sista only knows i'm cooking pasta.. heh. dear sista, dont worry, the food is definitely edible and it's gonna taste great k? just remember to bring yourself with an empty stomach.. hee.

oh man.. i tell you.. my dad is L.A.M.E. he just showed me a picture of a pig with only 2 legs, which is in fact the picture of a whole pig folded where the legs are.. looks real actually, but.. LAME!

so.. should i say, like father like daughter?? haha. not really, i think i'm worse. my idol is probably angie's mom! right angie? or is it your dad? O_o? follow in the example of lame-ness..

oh no.. i forgot to put up farewell assembly photos.. hm, that reminds me. averted a disaster that day by scooting off.. that day was real hilarious.. besides angie and i having to take photos with sammy (btw i insist that i'm a third and innocent party, angie and sammy are happily married), there were happy (or rather forced) photos of sharn and peter! and my dar yans and her beloved Mr Potato.. in bliss man those 2.. they are absolutely compatible! oh yea, i thought mr G was quite happy with his G-strings.. lol. will never forget that day.

before i forget, cher, i finally read the blog, but not quite like what you described. haha. relatively interesting, and quite surprised by some stuff.. but that's about it.. time to start a new life, one of new hopes and dreams.

*cough* i'm not supposed to be here, but i couldnt resist the temptation..
i'm having a real bad sore throat now, but it was worse yesterday.. i couldnt even speak without hurting my throat.. dear sharn, it's not your fault.. i guess it's just that my antibodies were not working well.. heh. i guess everyone's studying so hard we've neglected our health..

i feel like an idiot though, after i've decided i'm going for choir pract regardless of A's being round the corner, i get sick. grrrreat.

btw, is it really necessary to let him know how i feel about him since it is the end of school? actually i'd rather he mistake someone else for me.. i dunno what i'm afraid of, just that right now, i dont want him to know. then again, do i have a choice? he already knows. ahh, the complexity of my situation. call me a coward, or avoiding the situation or whatever, but i'm gonna run away.

btw, js, if u stop bugging us non-stop to go k-box, we might go k? seriously, the more i hear about it, the less keen i am to go. fullstop.

i wont forget what mr wee said: i'm not giving up on you, so dont you give up on yourself. despite feeling quite unsure, i'm going to perservere. so i'm going off now.. ha. to make sure i get my econs right.

btw, i guess i wouldnt be blogging for quite a while.. it's not like i used to blog super regularly anyway, but that i'd be blogging even less? oh, the joy of blogging and reading blogs would be gone for now. somebody pls kick me if i start blogging crazily everyday.

talking about kicking myself, i really want to, for going back to choir.. i dont mean to say anything bad about choir at all.. it's just that i took a break at a wrong time and this only proves that i'm really not thinking right. now that A's is in less than a month, i might have to take a break again, which i totally feel bad about. i like going for practice, but it really takes up a lot of mental strength. 4 to 7 in church, singing.. and singing.. and night practice has begun as well.. so by the time i get home i just feel like plopping down onto the bed, so much time is wasted recharging. charlene (choir) was asking me when my A's was.. and i felt damn bad telling her i might disappear again in a few more weeks.. i'm back in choir for only 2 weeks and i'm leaving again soon?! esp when they've begun practice for cantata.. then again, i'll be in rome by mid dec.. but still! i'm at a loss.. i mean, i could always just only go for mass..

ok, angel and devil are exchanging fists within my head.. i'm singing for God, so i should go for mass! at least singing for mass will keep me close to God, besides the prayers. hope mona wouldnt mind me not going for practice.. ack.

lastly, i wanna thank an hons and sharn my dearest sista for all the encouragement that u 2 gave.. love u 2 lots! *hugz* i will hold on.. hopefully effectively.

oops.. i didnt realise the photos couldnt upload.. hm, funny that i could see them on my IE..

well anyway! today's Germie's birthday! Happy 18th Birthday gurl!

ok, back to some past stuff.. i think many might be wondering why i was unusually calm about him getting my no. Well, i couldnt have hung myself or go screaming around the school would I? honestly, i cant do anything and i most prolly wont.. but i'd appreciate it if my friends would kindly stop slapping my back and screaming my name in his presence..thankyou. even if what hui says is true, i dont think any response will come from me.. i dunno. you'd know when an infatuation is over, it's over. that's it. maybe i'd still find the person appealing, but nope, it's over. time to focus on more important things at hand.

seriously, am i someone who's incapable of passing gp? i have no idea, and i honestly-serious-to-the-core cant explain what a mess i'm in. was it the fact that i was thinking about pursuing a course in polytechnic in the midst of mugging?.. that made me feel i wasnt fit to be in a jc or rather reconsidering my academic plans? my grades are a mess, my brain's in a mess, so what's new?

peer pressure can be damn pressurizing. a complex feeling that i cant express in just a sentence? i dont wanna ramble here.. and i dont have the time? all i can say is that things arent going smoothly and i haven been praying hard enough. secondary and junior college.. it's a different thingy altogether.. i lack the enthusiasm, the liveliness, the perserverance and hopefulness i used to have.

i wish for a fairy godmother,
a shining wand;
a gentle tap is all i need,
to set all my problems free.
to put my mind on the right track,
to right my frustration,
and maybe hopelessness?
i may not be eloquent, outstanding,
or out-of-the-ordinary;
just requiring the guide,
a heavenly intervention
before i go insane.